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Oct. 19th, 2005

Title: Symptomatic
Pairing: House/Chase, implied House/Cameron, House/Cuddy, House/Wilson
Word Count: 1098
Rating: PG-13
Summary: The second greatest torture after working for House, as it turns out, is dating him.
Author's Notes: Written for Writer's Choice for fanfic100.

The second greatest torture after working for House as it turns out, is dating him.

The third greatest torture after working for and dating House is the cold and swift realization that you’re in love with him. Chase wonders if it was like this for Cameron; waking up in the middle of the night in a sweat after yet another dream about him, after a day of being plagued by thoughts of him, and another day of cataloguing every look he has, every action, everything he does.

Maybe it’s infatuation. Oh, God, Chase hopes it’s infatuation. They pass and go away, but being in love lingers and ruins things. If he’s not in love with House, then he’s normal. So it becomes about waiting it out, seeing if he can chase the infatuation away with time. Good ‘ol time, healing wounds and changing the landscape of life.

When five weeks pass and Chase can’t shake the admiration and that same feeling, he realizes he might have to admit he may be a little in love.

Damn it.

He’s such a bastard. If there were rules for love, number one should have been ‘don’t fall in love with misanthropic bastards with a penchant for needing a puzzle’. But there aren’t general rules about love and if there were, they would have to be altered anyhow, because House is like no other. They have to be developed along the way.

But there’s something to explain first, which is the ‘dating’ part, which House calls it to tease Chase and Chase calls it, but only to himself. Wilson, out of the country at a conference, wasn’t around to act the part of House’s deaf ear, so House had shown up at Chase’s door, insisting they go for a drink. With that, Wilson was out, Chase was in – at least for that week.

When Wilson had returned, Chase figured it was over; he would go back to being the fellow, one third of the foil to House’s madness.

But House kept showing up at his door, kept pulling him aside at the end of the day and making up some excuse that required Chase to stay. Drinks sometimes turned into dinners and occasionally turned into monster truck rallies or arcades, once there was a gig at some small bar that House dragged Chase to, grinning when Chase realized the band was local to Melbourne, branching out into the States.

That had been when Chase may have, quite possibly fallen.

And so here he is, a fallen man for a broken one and there’s no way to go but heartbreak, Chase is well aware of this. Cameron’s still pining and Chase can’t blame her – House has taken her on the same whirlwind ride he’s on, to monster truck rallies and dinners and lunches, to the odd drink here and there. He’s just the new toy of the week. Chase briefly amuses himself with the thought that it’ll be Foreman next.

There are perks, of course. House lets his oral fixation run wild. There are nights when House simply sits in his chair and lets Chase crawl atop – so long as he avoids the leg – and lets him go at his neck with his lips, sucking and biting; never quite leaving a mark, but always leaving House a limbless and pleased pile. There’s nothing quite like being able to use House’s skin like a canvas to nibble and kiss and tread and House is probably quite aware of how much of a delight it is for Chase.

Small trinkets to sate the pain of the inevitable. He vows, one night early in, to not be like Cameron, to not let himself fade and become a shadow of his previous self, yearning only for House’s validation and odd looks that are supposed to prove something. Being in love is one thing, showing it is another.

He wonders if he should talk to Wilson. Wilson knows, knows what it’s like to love House and get nothing but suffering in return. If Chase were honest, he’d be far more terrified of becoming Wilson than he is of becoming Cameron. Cameron’s obsession, her infatuation, her love for House will dwindle and fade as it’s already started. When they go for drinks, she flirts with men that buy her drinks and occasionally, she and Chase have danced around the notion of a one-night stand. Cameron is going to be fine.

Becoming Wilson is far more terrifying, the notion of perpetually being in love with House and taking every last barb and brutal heartbreak offered for years and years makes Chase go cold, makes him so terrified that he doesn’t know what to do.

And there’s Cuddy. Cuddy, who loves House like a brother, and why, damn it, why couldn’t Chase have gone that route. What’s the saying, there’s a thin line between love and hate? Yeah. They probably fucked in university, but now they argue and they fight and they hate each other, but not really. Cuddy would lay her life on the line for House and that’s a kind of unspoken love that Chase has never known.

But he’s not Cuddy and he’s not Cameron and he prays he’ll never be Wilson.

“Chase, back to the world of the living,” House’s voice draws him out of his reverie and he snaps back to attention, glancing back at the list of diseases that feature bowel obstruction as a symptom. He feels a pair of eyes staring at him and since there’s no one but him and House in the room, he has a pretty good notion of who’s doing the looking. He makes a point of reading for a few minutes before glancing up.

He tries to deny that his stomach flips slightly when he sees the intensity of House’s stare. “What?” he asks.

“You’re lovesick.”

Chase locks his jaw, setting it stiffly and turning back to his book. “You’re delusional.”

The way he loves House is going to be different from the others. He’s the toy, House’s lapdog. He’s a masochist to House’s sadist and he’ll keep going back for more because that’s just who he is. He’ll chew pencils and frustrate House and he’ll say a few things, take House’s side. He’ll be loyal as any pet and he’ll be there. He’ll hate being in love with House, but he’ll still love him. Chase muses, as he steadfastly ignores House, that he’s got the worst of it. Cameron, Cuddy, and Wilson’s diseases combined.

The disease of being in love with House.

And there is no known cure.



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Oct. 19th, 2005 08:54 pm (UTC)

Oct. 20th, 2005 05:34 am (UTC)
*curtsies* Thank you ever so for the reading!
Oct. 19th, 2005 08:54 pm (UTC)
Eeee, I love it! Perceptive and fascinating parallels - and lovely visuals :-)
Oct. 20th, 2005 05:39 am (UTC)
Yes, that neck fetish is quite nice :-D Thank you for reading and also? I am adoring your "L.A. Patient" SO MUCH. It's so very awesome.
(no subject) - flurblewig - Oct. 21st, 2005 04:08 pm (UTC) - Expand
Oct. 19th, 2005 09:26 pm (UTC)
Wow. This... wow.

Okay, gimme a minute and I'll get back to you with a proper review. ( : My mind is firmly in the 'wow' area right now.
Oct. 19th, 2005 10:27 pm (UTC)
Hm, alright.

I love the visuals. They're sort of whirlwind and fast and there's a rushed feeling like Chase is still wrapping his mind around it all. The pacing really fits with the content, which is awesome and rare.

You're so perceptive. Just... yeah, your perceptions of the characters and their relationships are so true to the show, and painful without being overwrought. You handled the House/Cameron relationship spectacularly well, which not many writers do and to which more writers should strive, as well as the House/Wilson thing, to which to gave a very interesting twist. Interesting and sad.

Mm. I love the way you haven't "perfected" Chase for this. He's not been changed to a fangirl's ideal perspective of him. He's still self-centered and a little vain and he's got a sort of ... hm, entitlement, but we're still rooting for him. And the oral-fixation is highly amusing.

I think that's all. This is a really fantastic story. ( :
(no subject) - andrealyn - Oct. 21st, 2005 04:18 pm (UTC) - Expand
Oct. 19th, 2005 09:30 pm (UTC)
Oh, I love this. This is just perfectly executed. Well done -- this is precisely how I envision the House/Chase dynamic to be. Great stuff!
Oct. 20th, 2005 04:02 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reading! And yeah, this is just...I love the House/Chase because it's not, you know, fluffy and normal, etc.
Oct. 19th, 2005 10:09 pm (UTC)
Your stories always make me so happy. Thanks for brightening up an otherwise dreadful day! ♥
Oct. 20th, 2005 04:12 pm (UTC)
Hee, I'm glad I could do so with Chase's angst! :-D Thank you for reading!
Oct. 19th, 2005 10:16 pm (UTC)

Woah, you killed me, and you put me in SUCH a good mood where before I was fairly depressed. This is lovely. Keep writing!
Oct. 20th, 2005 04:13 pm (UTC)
I'm glad I could inspire good moods! And thank you for reading!
Oct. 19th, 2005 10:18 pm (UTC)

Chase would so totally think, well, all of that.

Lovely. :)
Oct. 21st, 2005 04:18 pm (UTC)
Hee, he don't like it, but he's still wholeheartedly involved in it! Thank you for reading!
Oct. 19th, 2005 10:18 pm (UTC)
Damn you for being so good at writing those two....just...arrgh.

Lol. Also, since everyone is freaking trying to con me into it, I suppose I shall sign up for Chase/Foreman on fanfic100...
Oct. 19th, 2005 10:21 pm (UTC)
I suppose I shall sign up for Chase/Foreman on fanfic100

Would love you forever and ever and ever, oh my god. And thank you for reading! :-D I'm glad this one worked. Poor, poor hating-to-love-him Chase.
Oct. 19th, 2005 10:40 pm (UTC)
Your writing is always fantastic, and I think this is my favorite of your fanfic100 fics so far. Beautiful visuals (especially the kissing of House's neck), and just so wonderful. Really uplifted my day. :)
Oct. 21st, 2005 04:19 pm (UTC)
I've definitely got some more oral ones for fanfic100, but I'm glad this one worked so well! I've been trying to make each one different and not just a 'okay, one down' kind of thing. Thank you so much for reading and for the lovely, lovely words.
Oct. 20th, 2005 12:27 am (UTC)

I love it.
Oct. 21st, 2005 04:20 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reading!
Oct. 20th, 2005 12:53 am (UTC)
Loved it. Kudos.
Oct. 21st, 2005 04:20 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reading, and oh, oh, your icon. His wee angsty face!
Oct. 20th, 2005 02:16 am (UTC)
Good heavens! I enjoyed reading that a lot. My favorite was the Cuddy part.
Oct. 21st, 2005 04:21 pm (UTC)
I haaaad to put some Cuddy in, especially after the "There's a Great Wall of China between love and hate," because Chase would totally think the opposite of that.

Thank you for reading!
Oct. 20th, 2005 02:43 am (UTC)
Haha, I just wrote out a comment and then realized it was you. Of COURSE it'll be awesome!

Dude, I love it.

Like, Rock the Nation.
Oct. 21st, 2005 04:21 pm (UTC)
Ah, hush you. ALWAYS with the unnecessary flattering! Thank you bunches for reaaaading!
Oct. 20th, 2005 03:21 am (UTC)
Wow. I think this is your best yet. It's just left me all spine-shivery and sort of happy and sad for Chase all at once. And all the different ways they love House. This is amazing work.
Oct. 21st, 2005 04:22 pm (UTC)
It really did kind of strike me that House completely is one of those, 'push everyone away' and in the process, people just kind of fall, like moths to the flame because you can't...not. That doesn't make sense, but ah well.

Thank you for reading!
Oct. 20th, 2005 08:31 am (UTC)
Huh. Pretty.

I'm sorry, I'm not much more eloquent than that :P
Oct. 21st, 2005 04:22 pm (UTC)
I shall take this 'Pretty' and I shall taut it proudly! :-D Thanks for reading.
Oct. 20th, 2005 09:09 am (UTC)
ooh, beautiful. it's just so... _articulate_, and has a real degree of believability.
Oct. 21st, 2005 04:16 pm (UTC)
I'm glad it resonates towards the side of being believable, because that's usually all I care for, getting the voices/characters right.

Thank you for reading!
Oct. 20th, 2005 02:48 pm (UTC)
Wow. That is so good. Very in character.
Oct. 21st, 2005 04:22 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much for reading, and I must say, your icon made me sputter with laughter.
(no subject) - arcanefairy - Oct. 21st, 2005 04:31 pm (UTC) - Expand
Oct. 20th, 2005 05:04 pm (UTC)
Excellent, as usual. Knew it would be when I saw your name on it. I love the way you portray Chase - he really is a pitiful lapdog (but oh so pretty). He's so right that House is going to break his poor little heart.

Can't think of any criticisms, just a request for more, more, more!
Oct. 21st, 2005 04:23 pm (UTC)
N'aw, *blushes* always with the flattering. I really like that Chase is aware of it, whereas I think Cameron kind of would deny the same thing, that anything with House ends in heartbreak, because she wants to fix the world.

Thank you for reading and oh, trust me, I have a Chase-fic that goes up Monday! More is on the way.
Oct. 20th, 2005 06:09 pm (UTC)
Absolutely brillant!
Oct. 21st, 2005 04:24 pm (UTC)
Thank you for reading and for the lovely words!
Oct. 20th, 2005 06:57 pm (UTC)
Oh...my...god...there are no other words for it. You just portrayed the feeling of Chase in love with House so...realistically. I mean, their love could never be able to be a simple thing, and that's exactly how you told it.
Oct. 22nd, 2005 06:57 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much for reading and I'm so glad it came off realistically!
Oct. 21st, 2005 07:42 am (UTC)

Amazing... and WOW.
Oct. 22nd, 2005 06:58 pm (UTC)
N'aw, you're too kind, and thank you for reading!
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Oct. 22nd, 2005 06:59 pm (UTC)
Oral fixations are so very good, especially when they're Chase. Thank you for always reading and all the wonderful words!
Oct. 22nd, 2005 01:45 am (UTC)
Amazing fic!

You kept everyone in character, and I love Chase in this.

"There’s nothing quite like being able to use House’s skin like a canvas to nibble and kiss and tread and House is probably quite aware of how much of a delight it is for Chase."

That's one of the many lines I love in this. I can't wait for more of your fics, because you are crazy good. ^____^
Oct. 22nd, 2005 07:00 pm (UTC)
You're too kind :-p, but your words definitely make my day! Thank you for reading and I just hope I can keep entertaining!
Oct. 23rd, 2005 07:53 pm (UTC)
Awww, this fic is so pretty, sad, and all kinds of wonderful.
Oct. 24th, 2005 04:54 am (UTC)
I'm just glad it worked out! Thank you for reading.
Oct. 24th, 2005 12:26 am (UTC)
Ooh, this is great. I love the way you go through each of the characters and how they all relate to House.

The way he loves House is going to be different from the others. He’s the toy, House’s lapdog. He’s a masochist to House’s sadist and he’ll keep going back for more because that’s just who he is. He’ll chew pencils and frustrate House and he’ll say a few things, take House’s side. He’ll be loyal as any pet and he’ll be there. He’ll hate being in love with House, but he’ll still love him.

There are so many well written lines but I particularly love this snippet. It really sums up the House/Chase relationship, slash or otherwise. Wonderful!
Oct. 24th, 2005 04:56 am (UTC)
I'm really glad it came off well and thank you bunches for reading!
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